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Kaoru Krazy
Posted on 2006.09.19 at 21:59
Current Location: back home finally
Mood of the moment: ecstaticecstatic
Current monotonous song: Sajou no Uta - Dir en grey
Saw Dir en grey in concert this past weekend...shall talk about it later. This is just a space saver so I don't forget.

Okay, so the concert was amazing. Y'know besides all the Korn fans there and generally unhygenic people.

They played Ryoujoku no Ame which is always good, my favorite recent song of theirs. And they played mainly songs from Withering to death. (and maybe a couple from Vulgar?) But, despite the lack of older songs and no Child Prey (very dissappointed, playing Child Prey at their concerts is tradition, but they haven't been playing it as much on the FVT since it wasn't from their most recent album), it was still awesome. I think I was the only person of the group of Dir en grey fans there who recognized every song (and knew most of the words, except for The Fatal Believer which I had heard once from a not great unofficial recording, so I knew its name, but it was new and hadn't been released yet officially). Oh! I was really happy because they played G.D.S. at the beginning, which is a tradition for all of their concerts (along with Child Prey as a last song), since they released it on a single a few years back. I had heard that they hadn't been playing it at all their FVT shows, so Iw as really happy that they played it at the one I was at. For your information, G.D.S. isn't a great song or anything, I don't know if it can even be considered a song, it is mainly an intense techno beat interspersed with shouts of KILL!KILL!KILL! in incomprehensible engrish. But oddly enough it is a lot of fun to shout along with. So yeah, it was crazy and awesome. Kyo was insane of course. Singing and screaming and freaking out, spasming, etc. Spitting blood and rolling around on the floor, in true Kyo fashion.

Yeah, so while I was there I bought a DVD of their 2003 tour Final 5 Ugly Kingdom (or some combination of those words), since it was the earliest tour DVD they were selling. I'd really like to try and get their DVD (if there is one) for their A pilgrimage capsizing the islands tour or their A manipulated life tour or something. Though recently watching some of the Final Kingdom DVD, I have rediscovered some awesome songs some of the lives on it are purely amazing and so intensely emotional. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Oh! I also got a Dir en grey t-shirt for the FVT, it's pretty cool (not the greatest of their t-shirt designs), but it used their old It Withers and Withers tour skeleton t-shirt design and just removed the logo for that tour.

Okay, best part! Since I bought a DVD, I got a wristband that let me get in line to shake hands with Dir en grey at the meet and greet (most venues had two of the band members, sorta randomly chosen, some had all five, etc). At the show I was at it was just Kyo at the meet and greet, I was vaguely dissappointed that I wouldn't get to meet Kaoru (my favorite band member), but Kyo is a close second and was purely awesome. I was one of the first in line (mainly because I can run really fast in platforms), there were prolly more than a hundred people in line (maybe even two hundred) and while we were waiting for Dir en grey to come we hung out and talked and I met some cool people, I also got to sign the facebook Dir en grey Street Team banner (I was a member of the facebook group already) which was given to Kyo at the meet and greet (though I missed that part). Okay, so I'm in line, and I go up to shake Kyo's hand, and he is just smiling the sweetest smile, as I've said to people many a time since the concert, Kyo's smile is akin to the wide mischievious grin of a small child, it is just so adorable! *melts* (main reason why Kyo is catching up to Kaoru now, fav. band member-wise). It was pretty funny at the same time, b/c here is this person who you'd just watched roll around and scream and bleed and spasm for a half an hour, just standing there smiling the most adorable child-like smile. Oh yeah, he was wearing his crown ring too, which was pretty cool. Didn't think he still wore it or even had it for that matter. I want cool rings like that, srsly, rings are my favorite type of jewelry. But really awesome ones are hard to come buy, and clay rings are too fragile to make and wear (I know from experience). I made a ring out of clay a few weeks ago, looking back it seems it was really Vivienne Westwood-esque with a winged heart and all, but that was sorta accidental, I really want that Vivienne Westwood armour ring featured in the NANA manga and movie. Will continue this later, my mom is yelling at me for being up too late....

Kaoru Krazy


Posted on 2006.08.11 at 22:12
Mood of the moment: enthralledenthralled
Current monotonous song: Ryoujoku no Ame - Dir en grey
:OOOOOOOO Seeing Dir en grey in Boston (well Mansfield, MA technically) in September! I hope it isn't cancelled or that Dir en grey doesn't pull out. (Their vocalist has been having some problems, acute tonsilitis, etc. so who knows what may happen)

I'm so excited!!! ^O^

More to come soon....



Posted on 2006.08.06 at 00:03
Current Location: home
Mood of the moment: enviousenvious
Current monotonous song: 10 Things I Hate About You Soundtrack
Quiz snatched from silverandgold06

My Results:
Click here

Sorry, nothing of actual interest on this update, maybe something next week?

Me in a sentence:
"Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely."

Posted on 2006.04.21 at 18:18
Mood of the moment: enthralledenthralled
Current monotonous song: Merciless Cult -Dir en grey
This describes me perfectly, in every way.

My aura is lavender <3Collapse )

Posted on 2006.03.09 at 18:45
Mood of the moment: ecstaticecstatic
Current monotonous song: DISCO PLAYLIST!!! <(^^<) ^(^ ^)^ (>^^)>
Gonna be in California from Friday (10th) until next Wednesday (the 15th I think). Then I shall be back. Just in time to see V for Vendetta!

Posted on 2006.03.03 at 15:25
Mood of the moment: contentcontent
Current monotonous song: Child Prey - Dir en Grey "kiss me dreadly"
snatched from joie_de_vivre

You Are 76% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

I'm in an amazingly good mood now. Even though everyone has been stressed/fried about French and Spanish orals. Now that mine is over with I feel pretty good. So, okay, my french oral didn't go to well, I blanked on a lot of it. But, I'm just glad it is over with.

And that's all I'm saying for the time being, today I'm going to relax! before I have to start worrying 'bout exams for the rest of the weekend. ^^;

Posted on 2006.02.22 at 19:31
Mood of the moment: soresore like nobody's business
Current monotonous song: La La Love You - Pixies
Hectic day.
Not good French class-wise. Decent AP Bio. wise (got a 93.5 on my test! So I am content. I was really worried 'bout it). First track practice for me ever. I should've stuck with swimming. *sigh*
My Cicero translation is interesting so far, I actually only have to translate a very small part of it. Overall, prolly not eve 15 sentences in all to translate, and I'm through five or six of 'em. He was quite blatant in his condemnation of Catiline, and he seems to like rhetorical question. But, I suppose that that's what oration is really about. I'd quote it if only I could remember it. xD I should blow off my homework tonight and rest up, but I can't let myself get anymore behind in Franch and AP Bio.

Tomorrow is going to be crazy. *bangs head on keyboard*
So much stuff to do, or want to do.
8:00 - School (try not to get too bogged down in work)
3:30 - Track practice (gonna miss watching the Shakespeare competition because of it) and dying since I can't run long distance.
Before 6:00 - help setup for Talent Show
Whenever the talent show ends - clean up
Then -home/homework/collapse in pain from being out of shape

I'm too out of it to talk about stuff today. See ya later.

Posted on 2006.02.21 at 21:31
Mood of the moment: discontentdiscontent
Current monotonous song: Fura Fura Skip - cali≠gari

"Tell me where is fancy bred,
Or in the heart or in the head?
How begot, how nourished?
Reply, reply.
It is engender’d in the eyes,
With gazing fed; and fancy dies
In the cradle, where it lies.
Let us all ring fancy’s knell;
I’ll begin it – Ding, dong, bell.
Ding, dong, bell."

from joie_de_vivre

1. Real name and/or screen name:
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1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Post a picture of yourself:
4. Put this in your LJ.

Posted on 2006.02.19 at 12:37
Mood of the moment: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current monotonous song: None at the moment
from joie_de_vivre
My Enneagram type is FOURCollapse )

Posted on 2006.02.17 at 21:11
Mood of the moment: listlesslistless
Current monotonous song: MACABRE - Dir en Grey
Today is a hard day to describe. So I may have to go by classes I've had then add stuff on.

Brit. Lit. - Not much happened today. Reading Macbeth. First time I swear this whole school year that Mr. Peterson got to class before the bell rang. He also got yelled at by some parent before class. *grin*
Latin III - Half an hour of Periculum Latinum. I so dominated the mythology categories. ^^ I <3 mythology.
Break - wandered, tried to study a bit for AP Calc. quiz and AP Bio test.
AP Calc. - took whole period for me to do the quiz and didn't finish most of it. I just didn't understand how to do the second half of a number of the problems.
AP Bio. - TEST, my god, it wasn't tooooooo terrible. But I doubt I even got in the mid-B-range on it. ><; I did horribly on the free-response. Luckily, my other test grades were all good, so it'll even out prolly.
Lunch - not much happened. hung out with whoever showed up in the conference room. etc.
French II - Checked homework, by means of splitting the class in two and having a competition to see what team got more sentences right. We tied. So....Everyone gets candy! ^O^ I luffs on candy.
Comp. Gov't - Christina was gone, and it was a friday, and classes were going to end 10 minutes early anyways for the basketball games. So, no class pretty much, so I went and wandered, then hung out with Kylie and Kayla in the Physics room.

Afterschool - headed up to the basketball games. Watched the first one. Got really tired. Decided not to watch the 2nd game (not O'Neal one). So, Katie S. and I went over to the horticultural gardens at the college and wandered around and talked about lots of things. Mainly just how crazy and stressful the past couple weeks have been, etc. 'Twas nice to talk 'bout things. Then headed back and watched a bit of the 2nd game while waiting to be picked up by my grandparents. Went home. Watched the figure skating I missed last night (had recorded it). Watched some Jeopardy. Did computery things. Watched a couple episodes of CSI. And here I am.

*sigh* I'm so tired. But I don't want to sleep. I'm just exhausted mentally.

Posted on 2006.02.16 at 19:53
Mood of the moment: draineddrained
Current monotonous song: various songs by Rammstein
Well, I've been checking my Johari Window, only five people have contributed to it so far. But, apparently I'm very complex. xD So today was not great, it was nice to go outside some and not do stuff, but AP Bio. really has dragged down my mood since I'm screwed for the test tomorrow, as well as the quiz in AP Calc. tomorrow. *sigh*

Will update with more later or tomorrow. Oog.

Posted on 2006.02.15 at 17:40
Mood of the moment: pissed offRAWR
Current monotonous song: Princess Mononoke Theme
Pissed off and frusturated like nobody's business. But I don't know why. I just am.


EDIT: I think it's because I have time to think nowadays. And I imagine friends are doing things intentionally that they probably aren't actually/purposefully doing. And then I get frusturated with them for doing it, and get frusturated since I don't really know if my frusturation is justified and it just builds up. If that makes any sense. I shouldn't doubt them in these cases, but it's sometimes hard not to.


Johari Window ^^

Posted on 2006.02.14 at 21:06
Mood of the moment: lazyunsettled maybe?
Current monotonous song: Garden - Dir en Grey
*snatched from joie_de_vivre*

Johari Window!

Today was alright I have to say ^^;. Even if it was valentines day. *shudder*

*sings* So very behind on homework...AP Bio. Lab is screwing me over...*sings*

Ate too much candy today. xD Seriously. And got more from my parents and grandparents tonight.


so excited!

Posted on 2006.02.11 at 21:57
Mood of the moment: anxiousanxious
Current monotonous song: last.fm neighbor radio
"Exclusive News From Dir en grey
Posted: 02-10-2006

The rumors have been flowing and the anticpation has been non stop. We've all been waiting for several years and the moment is almost upon us!!!

On February 15th, Dir en grey will be making a special announcement regarding their invasion of America. Be sure to check back for more details."

Got off the Warcon site. O.O Must know when they're coming to the U.S!?

Posted on 2006.02.08 at 11:15
Mood of the moment: sicksick, but recovering
Current monotonous song: Hey - Pixies
So, so far, I have not had a very good week. Emotionally Sunday and Monday were awful. Physically Tuseday and Today are killers.
I have not gotten enough sleep lately. I've been feeling sick/nauseated non-stop. Yesterday's swim meet almost killed me. I was on the verge of vomiting after my 500 free, that and I did terribly in it in the first place, probably a minute slower than usual. I recovered enough in time to do my 100 Breaststroke, which I actually did decently on, but after the meet and on the bus back, I felt like crap. At least since I didn't make the state cut times for my events, I'm done for the year in swimming. Thank god. Not eating enough the last couple days has probably been pretty detrimental to my health. Worst of all, combined with the sick-ness and exhausted-ness, my time of the month started at friggin' 3 o'clock this morning. So I have definitely not rested enough.

Well, I'm gonna go eat, shower, read, and sleep some more, I think.

On a lighter note, I've gotten to the third book in the trilogy Spaz lent me. I'm missing school today, which is a nice and much needed break. I'm just a little afraid of all the AP Bio. and Latin labs quiz translation stuff I'll have to make-up. This week needs to end faster. I got an A+ on my Canterbury Tales test and an A- on my re-written Beowulf essay. So I'm happy 'bout that since I despise Mr. Peterson. I think Jeremy and Kevin have found a way to get Mr.Peterson in trouble sort of. Though I doubt they'll actually do it. It's entertaining to say the least. I'm excited that we're almost done with learning latin grammar. As soon as we take the quiz and turn in our translations for chapter 26. We'll move on to reviewing calendar, history, mythology (YAY!), etc. for the National Latin Exam. Then after that we are going on to translating authors (which we need to study for the Natinal Latin Exam as well). I get to translate Cicero! Laura Puleo gets to translate Caesar, since Sarah and I had already done some Caesar in Latin II, but Laura P. hasn't. I beat Sarah to Cicero, so she gets/has to translate Livy. I'm excited, even though I'm not very good at Latin and Cicero is bound to be confusing. The funniest thing is Laura P. is really really good at Latin, but she has to read Caesar who is easy to translate since he uses such simple grammar, etc.

Wow, it's really sunny today. I just realized. xD My dog has been barking at something or the other for the last hour I swear. I'm kind of sad I'm missing out on such a nice day, but I don't think I could handle school today.

Will continue this entry later.....just need to eat and shower first.


I'm getting worried, 'bout myself.

Posted on 2006.02.04 at 21:52
Mood of the moment: pensivepensive
Current monotonous song: Missing You - Jem
I need to find some more interests and hobbies. My life is so boring now. I go through it but don't revel in it. Since I seem to have a weird apathy where though there are many topics and hobbies I find interesting, etc. I never find enough motivation to pursue them or find out more about them. I'm losing my will to do anything. One of these days I'm just gonna lose the will to do anything whatsoever. And I'll become a vegetable, never leaving my bed.

My mind is wandering and not working much as of late. For some reason, when people speak of interesting topics, ones I know I should find thought provoking and are in line with my typical interests, I'll, rather than become engrossed in a train of thought, zone out and forget what was so interesting. I may be having memory problems, I swear, I have more trouble remembering names (of historical figures or even celebrities) quickly, and I tend to forget phrases/complete thoughts that I form soon after they come to me, no matter how much I try and remember them. Just last night I had an interesting thought and I formed it into an awesomely phrased quote, but in the few seconds it took me to find a pen, I forgot most of it, and it's profundity. I have to write everything down (on my hand) nowadays if I really need to remember it. And that doesn't even help sometimes.

I'm starting to get worried about myself and my sanity. This all may just be a side affect of all the stress and emotion I've been feeling lately, but if so, it's been getting worse in its effect on me over the past few months. Also for those same past few months I have/had been feeling tired and sick, etc.

But I won't let anything pull me down.
I swear I'll defeat it.
Just give me something to prove myself.
Or let me be near.
And I will blossom beyond imagining.
For I live for others.
And thrive because of them.

I need a simple project to do. Any ideas?

I forgot how much I enjoyed doing little things, such as fixing a shoe ^_______^, relaxing in comfortable clothes, observing people, or giving support and showing understanding towards others.

Posted on 2006.01.30 at 20:09
Mood of the moment: moroseconfused and wanting you
Current monotonous song: Birdhouse In Your Soul - They Might Be Giants

So, school is getting better in terms of homework, etc. But worse in terms of my concentration and interested-ness in the classes. I don't know, I feel like I'm once again becoming apathetic, like I usually do at some point in the school year. I need some entertainment/distraction, this past weekend was a total bust in that department. Tomorrow is the white-out basketball game. I fear for my life, when my parents see my AP Calc. interim grade. I still can't get over my nervous-ness (and therefore odd-ness) around some people these days. Don't know what to talk about...

I'll Fight You.

Posted on 2006.01.10 at 20:19
Mood of the moment: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current monotonous song: Shiroi Hada Ni Kuruu ai to Kanashimi no Rondo - Malice Mizer
Been re-reading the Earthsea series by Ursula K. LeGuin. I <3 it. It's one of the first fantasy series that I read and it's the one that has really influenced my taste in fantasy and influenced how I write (poetry and the like). The only thing that irks me is the little inconsistencies between books and the fact that I'm missing the second book. Found a slight inconsistency between The Farthest Shore and Tehanu. Will rant 'bout that later. So, now I've re-read The Wizard of Earthsea (<333333), The Farthest Shore, and Tehanu. Just have to read the story Dragonfly in the book Tales from Earthsea, and read The Other Wind. And of course if I find The Tombs of Atuan I can skip backwards and read that, though I doubt that'll happen, since it has been missing for years.

Mkay, School:
-I don't care 'bout homework so much anymore, put it off until late at night.
-Really hope that we get a good US History teacher next year.
-AP Calc isn't too bad now that we've started slightly new stuff, but I still haven't been able to get very many problems right lately.
-AP Bio. aside from labs it is now my easiest class. Scary, ne?
-Latin not too bad, I can manage it pretty well though I'm not very fast at it.
-Comp. Gov't, I feel bad for Dr. Miller now that our class (of four people) never works on the stuff he assigns and we constantly (almost) harangue (but not angrily) him when we want to work on stuff for other classes and the like, we're really taking advantage of him now, and I feel bad about it. ><; Yeah, we'll have to make it up to him some how.
-French is not so great, I'm so tired during it that I completely zone out when Madame asks me questions or compliments my hair/outfit, and I often get flustered and give wrong answers to questions now. I just can't handle that class. Too much pressure. I <3 Madame though.
-Brit. lit. gave my seminar on The Franklin's Tale today, it went pretty well, though Mr. Peterson kept trying to tell more of the story before people were done writing stuff down or before I was done telling them important points about the part we were at. But overall a pretty good class considering the teacher and subject matter and classmates. >< Some of them definitely aren't too bright. Or at least not too civil.

Other stuff,
Not feeling so great physically, I WONDER WHY. :O
Skin is bad lately too.
I hate hormones. >O

Okay, let's get off that topic ^^; Humph.

I need to watch Amelie again. I love that movie, so muchly!

It's quite entertaining when a song by Malice Mizer or Dir en grey comes up on my shuffle playlist right after a song by Jem or Freezepop.
I <3 music. I <3 people. But, I also hate people. For the rules they place on others, knowing or unknowing-ly.

Well, being kicked off the comp, temporarily by my mother, may continue with another entry later.

EDIT:: Okay, nevermind bout' the slight inconsistency thing between Farthest Shore and Tehanu, it was solved/explained in the story Dragonfly from Tales From Earthsea.

Posted on 2006.01.10 at 20:13
Mood of the moment: cheerfulcheerful
Current monotonous song: Stakeout - Freezepop
Person 1: I should use your Easy Button to find my Easy Button?
Person 2: c/wouldn't that tear a hole in the universe?
Person 3: what's the worst that could happen?
Person 1: that.

I <3 this ad now for some reason. Couldn't remember what was said exactly, so I made some of it up.

That was easy.

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